Not sure if it's the stress im getting
Or just the resurfacing of incidents of the past
I just cant sleep nowadays.

Yes i know i sleep like really early...12 and such
(Recently 1am cos of projects)
But usually I'll only fall asleep at 2+ (2 hrs lying on the bed)

I guess somehow...the thoughts start to flow in only when
Im horizontal? LOL
Yea but did quite alot of thinking..
Even realised i forgot a friend's birthday.
Im so sorry! I hope my apology was sufficient.
Sorta sprang up and grabbed my phone. Lol...

And yea..i always thought my life was spent 'alone' for the past few years
Lately i realised, i actually have many happy memories with people.
Although they ended tragically here and there...(figuratively)
Yea..some of those i never knew why...
and some that just faded naturally when it's 'time' came.
I guess they really had played a part in how i am today
Emotions, character and experience wise..

4 years of chat logs aint just files in a folder
But a walk down memory lane.
I think one day i shall just sit there,
Reading them, laughing, tearing at all the contents
How i was so silly, how i used to be
The past me.



..looking back..
..yeah..i guess i missed you too....
..takecare