So many things going on in my head
It's just so uncomfortable
But i cant say anything

Common tests are coming

I&E is freaking screwed, no one feels obliged to talk or initiate
And the freaking teacher insists on something special and long to prepare

Christmas is coming but theres nothing much about it

Im spending the new year in another country, away from everyone, much to my despair (why)

Everything is just doesnt go the way i want it you know.

To the extent, now when i plan anything, i immediatly look at the contingency (what-if-it-fails) plans.

Looking forward to things to speed time up doesnt work anymore. Doesnt really work. No reason why.

I speak in twisted tongues, messed up logics, lost self confidence....why am i saying all these anyway




Why is it i only blog when im full of shit. I know everyone wants to know the happy stuff. But i cant talk abt it. They're seasonal anyway. What's in it for me.












Im not thinking alot. It's jst in my face somehow. I should make this blog private actually since im always talking to myself.